I wanted to do a video post today about this crazy energy shift that we’re all feeling but that didn’t happen with all the craziness , in a house with five kids lol , so here I am at 11:30 pm finally sitting down to discuss it. So , let me just dive right in and say there is so much going on energetically and cosmically , and everyone is feeling it. You do not need to be a witch to understand what is happening . If you’re an empath, you are really feeling it. Everyone is feeling like everything is falling apart. Old patterns are coming up, old ideas and thinking are coming up as well. People feel like they’re losing their minds. People are leaving their jobs, relationships, situations, and all that no longer serves you, for your higher good. Now, some might not even have realized that this is what’s going on. They probably just feel like it’s one thing after the other and that these decisions are the ones that seemed like the best at the time or they had no choice but to make those changes. But energetically, and cosmically , there is a huge, higher meaning to everything that is transpiring . There is a trine happening right now, between , Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces. Now, with this trine happening, it is pulling everything to the surface. Making the subconscious, conscious. This is happening to everyone, not just those signs. There is a full moon on Tuesday, which is in Sagittarius ….this is another huge factor in purging ourselves of the bullshit. Full moons are a time of illumination when we are asked to deal with what is in front of us and not run for cover any longer. It is a time for truth and to start a new path and leave the past behind. In numerology this is the year of 11….the gateway, transformation and manifestation. My gawd, if that wasn’t enough to get your attention, also, with all the crazy energy being pulled to the surface, there is something exciting going on that I have noticed and a few of my friends have noticed it as well…. The Goddesses that are rising during this time…. They are without a doubt making themselves known. Kali, Oya, and Pele ! Let me tell you just a little bit about these goddesses, they do not fuck around. Kali, the hindu goddess of creation, destruction, and power. Oya, the african goddess of storms and wind. Her name means ” she who tore “. She brings about sudden structural change in people and things. Pele, is the goddess of fire, lightning, wind and volcanos. Do you remember recently the volcano that erupted in Hawaii ? Bet your ass that was Pele…. these goddesses are not fucking around. Ask the Hawaiian people and they will tell you just how powerful Pele is. The shift is happening whether you like it or not. If you fight it, it’ll only be more harsh for you. The storm will pick you up over and over again and rip you to shreds , until you’ve said, “enough !”, stripping you bare and raw and making you see your truth… and face yourself. You are left with YOU, YOURSELF, YOUR SHADOW. They are basically telling us, face all your shit and move the fuck on. Shake all the bullshit off and transcend ; its time. These goddesses take no bullshit. They are saying, “take the mask off when you speak to me , or i’ll take it off for you.” This is all a time of being completely raw and authentic with ourselves, and healing old traumas and just all around all old bullshit that no longer serves us. Even though all this feels harsh as fuck, it is for your higher good.
Now that I’ve told you all that crazy cosmic shit, I can’t just leave it at that without giving you some tips on how you can get through this challenging time . Below I will post a list of some things you can do that should help the energy around you and in your environment and help make things just a little more peaceful and calm.
- Wash your floors and doors with Pine-sole. You might laugh or even roll your eyes , but Pine-sole has real pine in it. And pine is purifying as fuck. It works like a charm, no bullshit. My house was feeling heavy for weeks, and I saged it and used palo santo several times, actually, daily and not much was changing. Finally it hit me, I needed to cleanse the house with pine. There was a significant change in the energy immediately .
- Diffuse. If you have a diffuser and essential oils, use them. I suggest using lemon, orange or any citrus blend you like. Peppermint, rosemary, frankincense , lavender are good ones too. They help lift the mood or calm the mood when needed. If you don’t have a diffuser you can boil oranges, or orange peel with cinnamon, clove, nutmeg and vanilla on the stove and it’ll make your whole house smell amazing….that blend will instantly bring a happier feel to the house.
- Salt baths. Sea salt…not table salt, you’ll burn your ass lol. Or you can use epsom salts too. Salt baths help to remove negative energy and help you feel more balanced. You could even add some essential oils to your bath too….calming ones ,like lavender
- Meditate and ground yourself. During these times you should be doing this daily if you can.
- Reiki. Smooth chaotic energy. Heal.
- Cry it out. Allow yourself to feel. No more stuffing shit down and trying to deal with it later. Deal with it now.
- Sleep. Take naps. Learn to be still when it’s all too much.
- Light candles. White for purity and cleansing. Black to get rid of negativity. red or pink for self love. blue or green for healing. Ask your guides, your guardians, your angels, to help you. To give you guidance. To give you peace and clarity if you need it.
- Most importantly…. take care of yourself ! Seriously. Eat better food. Exercise, get out in nature. Get a massage or go dancing. Do something thats just for you, whatever that may be. This will shift the energy to a more positive one. *** Even though these seem like just simple mundane things, they, if practiced will make a difference and help get you through these times by shifting the energy in your favor. Just remember, shake all the bullshit off and transcend; it’s time. Blessings to you all.
White, the element Metal “Everything is changing, and I’ve been here for too long. Going through the same things (…) got to move on.” If the element Metal could express itself in two sentences then probably it would use the words of Sigma. Transformation and letting go is its core. Dying and not-knowing (what next) […]
After being prompted to focus on the word ‘dream’ today, I automatically thought of a video I watched not long ago called “Is this life a dream ? ” In this video Alan Watts …
Source: Is this life a dream ?
Wild and reckless. ….. I ran free….. like a wildfire. … burning…. unpredictable. …. and could change my path in a moment just by the direction of the wind. Many who came across my path felt my wildness and wanted to run with me…… many couldn’t keep up….others, like hunters….. lured me….. and tried to cage me….. capture my essence. …my wildness. …. free spirit….. and keep it to themselves …..like something precious they’ve found and want to hide it away so no one else can take it from them. Many I escaped and left ravaged. … on their knees begging not to leave…… I am a fucking storm….. cage me and I will only get stronger and blow the top off and leave you in shambles. ….. rubble. …of the walls you tried to build around me.
I wasn’t put here to be captured and caged……. I was put here to set ablaze every heart I come across…… and bring it alive…..not to awaken greed, jealousy and control……. possessiveness. ……
I …. such a wild heart….. wild spirit….. I never stayed in one place long enough to grow roots….. no….. that was too permanent for me……. I never let anyone get too close that it could destroy me….never….. I loved….. yes…. gave….gave parts of me….. but only certain…… I never handed someone all of me…… and I never let anyone fully in……. never let myself experience the love….. full irrational, ravaging love , people speak of……. no……. that, to me, was a bigger storm than I …….. and I like a tornado …… sucked in my surroundings ……causing destruction and gaining strength. ……. always having the upper hand. …… until…….
I made a great mistake. ….. and went down the wrong path……. and ran into another tornado. ….. intertwining and collapsing. …… I let another suck the wind right out of me…… and ground me……. but not in a healthy way……. it was like I was bottled ……. suffocated. …….. I had lost my wildness….. my strength. ….. my free spirit…… I had grown so weak I thought I would die…… until, the one who ” bottled ” me , had shaken me ……. thrown me……shattered my vessel that I was kept in…….
I was set free ……
now….. changed….. meek…… weary….. untrusting and hyper vigilant to anyone who comes too close….. I feel as if I’m nothing but a dust devil…….. but, every once in a while I feel little sparks inside me….. like bolts of lightning and the rumble of Thunder. ….. I am transmuting …… a derecho ….. redeveloping. …..reaching the earth’s surface….. I feel my healing…… my calling…… my strength. ….. I spread myself along the horizon. …. ready to gain momentum. …..
I suddenly notice something intriguing. ….beautiful. ….different. ……I watch and study for a while….. what is this beauty in front of me ? I go and test it’s surroundings…… it’s a man ….. a MAN. ….. different than any I’ve ever encountered …… he’s strong….. an unfamiliar strength and gentleness in one being …… calm…. and wise…….. me…… a storm…. sometimes uncontrollable. ….. I send out gusts of myself ……. and he never moves ….. never falters. ….. who is this man ? I draw back in my storm and at times cowering back into myself……. I’ve never come across someone on the same level as I or higher, that has intrigued me as much as he has……..
You terrify me, cause you’re a man, you’re not a boy. You’ve got some power and I can’t treat you like a toy. You’re the road less traveled by a little girl. You disregard the mess, while I try to control the world. Don’t leave me, stay here and frighten me. Don’t leave me, come on enlighten me………. challenge me, watch me squirm baby…… I want to play a fair game ….. I’ve always had the upper hand ~ Sia
He is strong but calm and gentle. ….. that is foreign to me……. I let my guard down. …. I’m frightened. ….. I just want him to come closer…… let me feel you…..let me learn from you….. teach me what you know….. I want to let you in…… I know, no matter how strong my storm can get…… he won’t budge. … he knows how to calm me….. to draw me in, in such a beautiful – gentle way …… he doesn’t try to cage me….. he loves my wildness….. he recognizes the beauty in my free spirit and enjoys watching me dance on the horizon. …. this time no destruction. ….. only leaving the sky colored with the brightest hues, that have colored my heart since meeting him…… highlighting the sky with love…… my love for wildness….. freedom…..my love…….for him.
I wake up in the morning with an ache in my stomach and chest and tears in my eyes. Each day just wanting to go back to sleep…don’t want to feel this….it hurts too much. I try to have the strength to get out of bed and face each day…. I sit up, take a deep breath and take a few minutes to sit on the side of the bed….and tears start to well up in my eyes…. I wipe them away….close my eyes and turn my face to the window and let the sun touch my face….clench the side of the bed with my hands and think to myself, you can do this….
I can’t be who he wants me to be…..all I can be is me….and to feel like that’s not enough, to someone you were so hopeful felt the same way, is a knife to the heart. It’s an actual pain to my chest. How can he not see me…ME…..all he sees is the bullshit going on around me….does he even realize that shit isn’t me…..it’s just stuff I am having to deal with….and through all of it , I am still standing on my goddamn feet…..doesn’t that say something about me as a woman….I stand and I deal….no matter what. Not once did I ask him to bail me out, to save me….I’ve handled each thing myself. All I ever wanted from him was to have him by my side….to know he was in my corner…to know I wasn’t alone. I don’t need anyone to save me….I just wanted him by my side as I handled the shit being thrown my way. But, sitting here,I’ve realized, if he’s willing to walk away from me because of the shit going on around me….because everything isn’t all champagne and roses…..then that just shows me what type of man he is…..if I was to to get really sick again or something worse happened, that just shows me that he wouldn’t stay and be the strong man I can count on to be in my corner…. and I don’t want someone like that in my life….life is messy, it’s unpredictable. …it’s not perfect….I can’t wear a mask and pretend and be plastic ” fake ” ….that’s not me….if that’s what he thinks life should be or how a partner is going to be, well then he’s going to be real lonely….or get bored with the plastics and miss a real authentic woman. A woman who can handle whatever life throws at her….and isn’t afraid to get dirty and cry and scream and laugh and dance and be silly….be real….I don’t have anything to pretend for and I don’t want to….life is too short…. I just want someone I can be real with…..someone who isn’t afraid of storms and doesnt run for shelter when shit gets tough…..no…… I want a man who will face that shit with me.
I don’t want to do the what ifs….but just for a moment I’m going to allow myself to write them all down and release them….. I just wanted him to know me….the me before an ex husband….the me before kids…..that person is still in here wanting to run free with the right man. I am still filled with so much love and passion, even after all the heartache I’ve endured ….I just wanted him to feel what it feels like to be free and wild and in mad love…..to take him on adventures and make memories….to see him smile and laugh until he cried….roll around in bed making love and look in his eye with tears in mine…. show him how much he touches my soul….and have him feel what it feels like when someone touches you so deeply ,that it moves you to tears…..I could’ve loved him like that…. I wanted him to look in my eye and see that same feeling, that we feel each other so deeply …..it’s the most moving, magickal, sensual feeling to know you love someone so much that in that moment you can feel their soul. I wanted to show him the deepest parts of me and bring forth the deepest parts of him…. but that will never be…. to him, I suppose I am not that…. he’d rather have the plastics it seems…. I don’t know…. he will one day realize I could’ve taken him on the journey to his soul and he’s going to wish he had the balls to have stayed and found that with me…. no other woman is going to bring him to that level…. in my soul, I truly feel that and believe that….. how can he not see and feel who I am…. an oracle. ….one who would have loved him like no other…..my heart is broken and it is painful….but beautiful at the same time….he broke me wide open and made me realize I’m not less than….I’m too much for the wrong man…..this heartache broke open a piece in me that right now feels like death, but I know it is the transcendence I needed to move me past my limitations of the heart and mind and it is a bittersweet beautiful death. …..and I will not fight it…..I will feel every bit of it….and cry and smile….. I loved…. I LOVED…..and I will never be sorry for that.
I need to thank you….
Thank you for waking my soul…it had been sleeping for far too long
Thank you for always listening
Thank you for all the incredibly thoughtful things you’ve done and given me….no one has ever shown such thoughtfulness
Thank you for always being the calmness I needed… I am a fierce and fiery woman and to have your calmness was to me the perfect balance….to bring me back down to myself in times when I needed it…. I always appreciated that so much and was grateful to have you be like that with me.
Thank you for giving me hope….hope that there is always a better tomorrow. ..it’s all in the mindset….thank you for always reminding me of that.
Thank you for our brilliant conversations and sometimes debates and challenging me…..challenging my thoughts, mind and heart.
Thank you for teaching me my worth….it is in my heartache that I have completely found that.
Thank you for helping me to feel that my dreams of going on adventures again were only in fingers reach…and because of that I am wholeheartedly pursuing them.
Thank you for opening my heart and overflowing it with the most intoxicatingly beautiful feeling of falling in love.
Thank you for breaking my heart wide open…..it needed to bleed, to breath, to feel, to let every bit of emotion I’ve kept hidden, come rushing out…. and in that, the light has finally come in. …and the most beautiful parts of me can now bloom.
Why do I hold my tongue. …. I’ve jumped….I’m falling… what if he’s not there to catch me….why am i holding back…… I fear I’m too much…. he’s pierced past my facade. ..now that he’s entered the unknown of me….I’m terrified. …what if he doesn’t like what he finds….what if I’m not good enough….hell, I don’t even know what lurks inside….. it’s like a gateway has been opened….and part of me that hasn’t seen the light of day since childhood, is coming out….fearful…unfamiliar. …disoriented and frightened. …not of him….but of this unknown….unknown part of me….that no one has ever touched. And somehow, he has.
I feel like Im getting better…..but what if my illness comes back. ….will he be there….will he care enough to stay…. will he hold me when I’m afraid… I’m scared I can’t and he won’t understand. ..or even want to wait around…or that he won’t even want to deal with my illness, my past, my fears….me….no one ever has. I feel like I have a hurricane going on…and through all of it, all I can see is him…. if I walk out into the storm, will he keep me safe…protect me…save me….or even have the courage to meet me in the storm ….I feel like I have no faith in someone caring enough…. my heart has never felt such rawness…. I want to know my heart is safe …I’m safe…. is he man enough to dive into my rapids when they are raging….. and pick me up and calm me….and give me a safe place to fall…..I am open…. my heart is pouring out….and my mind is spinning….all the what ifs , that I fear I cannot speak…..are consuming. … I’ve been strong for so long…. I’m getting tired…. is he that man, that can stand firm….take control. …and bring calmness and a healing power to this mind of mine….. and hold gently this weathered heart ….
ravaged, but spirited
damaged, but still deserving
I step out to get a glimpse of the sun and breathe in the fresh air….then I realize, I’m by myself….and I start to panic….alone…. Is that it ?
I’ve analyzed this internal dialog a thousand times….replaying old scenarios and old memories in my mind….but I’m lying to myself….why can’t I even tell the truth to myself ? For fuck sake….what the fuck am I so afraid of ? I skew the memories…and tell myself the story I want to hear.
What will I really be or look like if I actually write it all out….the whole fucking truth….on paper. …what will I see….my weaknesses, my strength, my selfishness, my cruelty, my ignorance, my impulsiveness, my sadness, my fears…..every ugly little thing about me that I don’t want to face ….that’s so stupid….especially after all the fucking shit I’ve been through. The last person I would think of to not be there, understand, or have my back or support me…..is me. How fucked up is that….why do I deny myself healing and truth and self love….
My mind constantly plays on a loop…..I want to let go off the past but the past doesn’t want to let go of me….. it’s like a leach to my soul… I wanna reach in, grab that fucker and rip him off me…..then I realize I’m covered in them… like a frenzy I want to scream, scratch and rip them off…..now what…. I’m left standing here bleeding. ..weary and weak…..now the scent of my blood makes me bait for the vultures. …. this is my internal hell….
Each day death crawls into my body:
Cutting through, with talon and tooth
Falling from above, with scythe and shroud
Reaching for me, tying me to dreams
Luring me…. who can deny such angel
~ Segovia Amil
After being prompted to focus on the word ‘dream’ today, I automatically thought of a video I watched not long ago called “Is this life a dream ? ” In this video Alan Watts explains inception and lucid dreaming in his lecture : Out of your mind. It is absolutely one of my favorite. … it always inspires me and gets me thinking ….. can you imagine if we all went out there into the world and made all our wildest dreams come true …. lived them….. climbed that mountain, jumped out of that fucking airplane. …… traveled to the other side of the world and put your hands and feet in that foreign soil….. ran to the person you love, who is unaware you love them….and have the courage to tell them….sit with the gurus of India…..really left your footprint…. your soul print on this world….so every being will know you were here….. that’s what we all want, right ? …. proof that we lived….really lived….proof that you were here….. I think that’s what we’re afraid of…. to be forgotten. …if we’re not remembered , did we even exist? ….so the question is, do you exist. … is this life one big lucid dream….. possibly. .. and in that case, what the hell is stopping you …..create those dreams. ….what are you waiting for…. this is your dream.
When we’re children. ..we play…we imagine…..nothing is impossible to us…. THAT child is still inside you…wondering what the hell you are doing…. asleep… cause it is uninterested in the mundane….wake that child up….and take it on an adventure ! Children get it… they see the Magick in life….the mysteries that are waiting to be discovered. …
That quote that says ‘ Sometimes you just need to sit down and talk with a two year old to put things into perspective ‘ …..I believe that is absolutely correct ! …the child hasn’t forgotten you…. you’ve forgotten the child.
Alan Watts in his lecture says….
” Like children who dare each other on things, how far out could you get ? What could you take ? What dimension of being lost of abandonment of your power…what dimension of that could you stand ? You could ask yourself this because you know you would eventually wake up, then you would get more and more adventurous. Finally you would dream where you are now, you would dream the dream of living the life that you are actually living today, that would be within the infinite multiplicity of choices you would have, so this idea then, everybody is fundamentally the ultimate reality, not God in a politically kingly sense but God in the sense of being the self, that deep down basic , whatever there is….and you’re all that, only you’re pretending you’re not. ”
Inception: The time at which something begins.
Begin…… it’s your dream
You, yourself, are the eternal energy which appears as this Universe. You didn’t come into this world; you came out of it. Like a wave from the ocean.